crying like a fool because i just can’t stop thinking of the antler’s “hospice” and how sad it is but how fucking excellent it is, ah… the entire concept breaks my heart, i cried listening to it and i still cry about it and no music has had this affect on me. 

but my life, oh my life, it is so good. i’m the happiest, and the luckiest. which is why i am so sad, it pains me others are in so much pain and have so many issues. and i take it forgranted every single day. thankful to be here, thankful i live in such a pretty place, thankful i have friends who care about me and family who sends me candy in the mail, and thankful that i love others so easily and that i have people who love me. thank you.

i need to reciprocate this, somehow, someday.